“For this reason I bow my knees before God (The Creator) from whom every family in heaven and earth is named, that according to the riches of his glory, you may be strengthened with the power through his Spirit in your inner being. So that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith-that you being rooted and grounded in love, may have strength to comprehend with all the saints what is the breadth and length and height and depth, and to know the love of Christ that surpasses knowledge, that you may be filled with all the fullness of God.”
I have no idea if you believe in God or not. I spent most of my life not “believing” in God. It didn’t seem rational and I often did not like the representation I was seeing. I still have no interest in believing in God and I still reject a good portion of the representation I see. I found for myself that it is an experiential encounter with God that is transformative and leads to a love that surpasses all understanding.
Imagine that you are swimming in an ocean of consciousness which has at its essence, Universal Love. I didn’t say “believe”, I said imagine. Now, what if your separation from this greater consciousness and thus a greater love was due to the limits of your own mind. You are a drop in that ocean but have believed yourself to be just a drop and thus separate from your source. You sense that there must be something greater in life but you begin to seek it “out there”. You never thought to look within. You try to obtain happiness by arranging your outer circumstances. But alas your outer circumstances are always changing. When they are the way you want them to be, you feel happy in your outer being. When circumstances change and you lose what you thought you had, through betrayal, theft, loss, sickness, or death, your outer being is thrown into chaos and you suffer, sorrow, anger, depression, and bitterness. You were told to pursue happiness but it turns out to be fleeting in the outer world.
This was the insight of Siddartha Buddha. Everything in the material realm is temporary so attachment to it leads to suffering. But the unspoken consequence of this is, in not being attached to anything, one becomes connected to everything.
This only happens when one realizes that you will never “find what you’re looking for” in the outer realm. That the “kingdom of heaven” (an ocean of divine love) is within you. Press into your spirit. Discover that inner portal that connects you to an even greater Spirit through which all life comes into being. When you are rooted in this love by your own experience, you become strengthened in your inner being. In your outer being, you will still experience trials, loss, sorrow, and suffering, but you will take heart through the world’s tribulations for you are connected to a Universal source of love, peace, and joy which is changeless and unshakable. It is the underlying fabric of the Universe and the essence of who you truly are. It can be experienced by the soul but never owned or possessed by the mind.
“Oh beloved, will you not risk a drop to gain the ocean” -Rumi
Si Gong/ The Zen Preacher